aiyan downright.

i’m back. i LOST my dear diary. and so i have to type this all out based on memory >~< the LM camp DAY 1 ok, so , i was anticipating this day, it seems like forever, wanting it to come. when i reached school, lots of people were already there, waiting and packing up stuffs. we were late and so Kay Chong ( KC) asked us to run 5 rounds around the assembly ground, and then, some people didnt have thier name tags, so they had to run additional 3 rounds. and that includes me! i mean. that’s really a tough thingy to run. and then we had a briefing from wan ning and a spot check. to see whether there were any so-called barang larangan that we smuggle. bread also cannot bring weyh !

then, we headed off, WN asked us to get ready for a sketch due to happen on the second day. impromptu , the dialogs. we thought of the story line and just thought about our song and tepukan.

when we reached there, at the bus stop, the firey sun was showering it’s rays on dear little aiyan. and my head was burning hot. after unloading our luggage, Chun Yan ( CY) asked us to RUN UP TO THE RESORT and my head went like, WHAT THE HELL> RUN UP THAT STUPID SLOPE?~! and CY went sprinting off. i didnt know he could run. and his legs are like, so straight and strong. gawd. and it took forever to run up that stupid hill and my heart was pumping like crazy.

so i had to like chill myself. and some kind ahem committees were kind enough to encourage me and pushed me up. after that we had the bag passing thing. our campsite was SO HIGH UP and the stairs were OH SO STEEP and we had to line in one line and passed up those luggage. man were they heavy. who would bring big bricks to camping? i know i wont. i think it’s really. heavy. period.

we didnt have the chance to actually rest. immediatly we started setting up the tents. and they keep blowing the whistle. everytime they blow, we need to like, emmerge from everything we’re doing and run to them. it’s really tiring.

Lets see, what happened next ? i think it’s cooking. wait. no. it’s the what ah! wait wiat. I REMEMBER, we had talentime! that’s something where we act something out, which connects with our own team’s motto. so we as the fireflies, acted a drama, which was preety good actuall, but all the commitees did were sarcastic comments, which well, i think their aim was to toughen up our weak souls. got scolded preety badly. but anyhow, we had something else after that.

i THINK we had the cooking competition after that, we were all hungry. we did mee hoon, which was quite nice, at least, according to the commitees we were better than the others, the results never did quite reveal. kin wai was basically shouting at everyone. he has his mood swings, and when we served our mee hoon, the teachers said it wasnt BAD. but did NOT stated that it was good or whatsoever

. i forgot what we did next.

i have a bad memory

we had the sketch after that, i assume ok. so the sketch. NO WE DIDNT HAVE THE SKETCH> WE HAD SOMETHING ELSE> yeah. we headed to public speaking after that, czi xian gave us a topic every 2 minutes and we had to talk out there impromptu. i didnt know what i was rambling about half the time there. and my teammates kept on buggering me for more imfomation. i reluctantly gave it to them, i mean, she said that no sharing of infomation is allowed.

blah blah after that, we headed to the night trekking/Minesweeper/ Minigames. before that, we were all gathered at Dewan Patin there, and had a briefing about what NOT TO DO IN THE FOREST. i mean, we cant call each other’s name and all. it sounded really scary . the way the ajk’s said. and basically we were following aaron, and he said that we CANT look behind or tap each other’s shoulder while doing the night trekking.

so, we were off, we went in group by group. it was not our group who went in first, so we did the minesweeping game. basically it was like this, it’s a maze in aw ay, and all of us are blindfolded, we must listen to the head’s instruction whether to turn left or right or step back or do whatsoever.

he’s so BLUR. and he’s weird. that’s all i can say. so after this ,we went night trekking. it was REALLY SCARY. who the hell would go night trekking? it’s like, you can go in the morning, where the sun smiles down on you. but then, ont he other hand, maybe they want to train our guts. so we walked through the jungle through a raphia string or how you spell it. scary? totally. t

hen the mini games was all mathematics, they give you an equation from the back and pass it upfront and uhave to solove it. i dont get the logic in that, but i still played on. LALA we went back to our campsite at about 2 am so heard. because we didnt had a clock. rumoured so lah. and i went to bed. not wanting to think that a ghost will come and grab me away/. -

DAY ONE END -

im going for the lm camp. it is well, suppose to be intresting, but then, i heard stories about how they’re going to torture you at night and how they’re stirct and stuffs. but in another objective, i think that it would be fun, if it was not for the pestering and the usual blabbering. and it’s currently RAINING and how on earth am i suppose to gather those goddamned woods. might as well starve.

and plus, i did the name tags, and karheng said it was SHIT so i guess i NEED to redo them all over agian. well, frankly speaking to me it wasnt shit. apparantly he thinks it’s shite. sigh. no matter what i try to do in LM it’s invinsible

first there’s a lot of stupid people who keeps hoggering those ajk’s and they go polishing their shoes, as though thier shoes aint shiny enough, then they go using THIER NAMES and ORDER US to do stuffs. and i especially hate those hypocrits and those who goes around ordering and NOT DOING STUFFS . ok. enough of the ranting. i need to get started. but where?

oh anyone know the so you think you can dance guy, the chris guy?

apparantly me and sucehn were standing outside dominoes

and he walked pass us, with the modern dance club

and she went hyper.

after a while, she went in dominoes

and screamed

CHRIS I LOVE YOU

and ran out.

left me there, with embarrasment.

and that’s how i spent my stupid day

but chris is sorta hot. LOL

i cant stand it. i dont know why

i feel really really down today.

i cant tell why. it’s like,

very much complicated.

life now totally sucks.

didnt know that i was called the LOLLIPOP girl.

situation: cross section at the jalan gasing there
People Involved : Me, Zhuan Zhuan

aiyan: so where you want to eat?
z : i tot you want to go 711?
aiyan : where got? ididnt say also.
z: i tot you want to buy lollipop?
aiyan : what FOR?!
z : last year all my friends know you as the lollipop girl. coz they always see you eating lollipop
after school so they call you the LOLLIPOP GIRL

aiyan : speechless.

anything but lollipop girl.

and the suchen told me that her sister told her THAT kelton they all used to talk about me. about the lollipop girl. that’s my new name. shite.

i read beh rong cheng’s blog. he’s just like what? the lim kit siang’s blog , all being so negative and stuffs. and mocking people. beh, it aint that necessary to do that kinda stuff you know. it’s not the way to get yourself being hatred.

apparantly today, i dont know. didnt get to skip class and do the tents deco because apparantly all the form fivers already bagged the stupid opportunity so i felt like a total useless bum, excistence not important. transparent and all those rablabla

so in class, i was listening to how chun kit was mentioning his gala concert tomorrow, seems like it’ll be held in conjunction with the annual sports day and that no one would be celebrating sports as they’ll all be at his live concert. AND APPARANTLY all those people who are doing tents are stuffs are actually preparing for his stage, and the set up and all those stuffs. cool imagination.

and after recess there wasnt much talk. need to pass up moral folio. darn.

and afterschool, had LM meeting, talked about the teachers day thingy, then me and a few people asked for early exit coz we need to do the tent deco.

and we went to kiraan’s house which is very nearvy and painted that gigantic axe. i’m not staying back. who wants to? i mean, i admit that I WANT TO, but my parents FORBID ME TO so what’s the point? they dont let me do stuffs like staying overtnight. too dangerous.

i’m going to have a busy week.

i was just sitting at the tapak, talking to careen about her one-week streak about not coming to school, and suddenly i heared my name being announced by mslina AGAIN the ump-teenth time. it’s frustrating and humiliating. you should see how many heads looked at me when my name was called. galah

so class was boring as usual i wont go in to detail. i cant even go! tthere’s NO DETAIL! just boring classes. after schoolw as practicaly much more fun . went out to lunch with suchen, winnie and liz. I LOVE ROTI PISANG. there. marks the end of it.

went to hui fern’s house. it was awkward. stepping into a house which i never stepped in before, so i started looking around LAH, then fern went like, you look like you’re in a museum or smthn, i mean, she looks so preety in the pictures. how could i NOT look. you TELL ME .

then we went online, helped her look for a list of songs. and with love is NOT NICE. i mean, it’s wierd and so not hilary’s HEY NOW HEY NOW type. i mean, i jsut dont get it like how suchen doesnt get chinese music. that’s that! t

hen went to 711 just in time, but dad came at 4.30 so i was very early. and then met so many people there. sigh. sometimes i wish that i dont know that many people. it’s confusing and remembering all the names and their history. it’s frustrating for me. but maybe some people think that they want to know more people, just to be the IT person and be te popular one. stupid thinking.

piano was disastorous. i forgot to practice. beat me up. and exam’s around the corner and teacher’s taking it so seriusly! she no more sits down next to me and patiently explain my wrong doings. she stands up and listen to me play and screams at me for NOT HAVING FEELINGS> so i guess that i should add in 3 hours of practice every day. sigh 6th of june.

SIXTH OF JUNE!

jia hui called like 9++ yesterday night, asked me to go back to school today at 9-3. i wanted to, but as usual. my parents DIDNT LET ME. and i’m going to be so screwed. she’s going to be ultra mad. i want to take part. but i just hope that she doesnt call me in the middle of a night outing and ask me to go back. it’s last minute and no one likes that.

well. i woke up at 12 and went to the book fair. so called. i CAME OUT WITHOUT BUYING A SINGLE BOOK. * applause* i mean, how often can you go to a book fair and not buy anything?! and after that, i came home at 3 and started STUDYING ACCOUNTS. mind you, i studied 6 CHAPTERS ALL BY MYLSEF WITHOUT TUITION TEACHERS OR WHATSOEVER. and i’m kinda proud. like duh! and you know, they ask you to sign up for accounts in school and dont ask the teachers to teach. and i knew it like, last week. and now total impromptu !

我掉進愛情懸崖 跌太深爬不出來

下降的速度太快 來不及踏上未來

該怎麼逃開 我控制不來

如果說分手 是苦痛的起點

那在終點之前 我願意再愛一遍

想要對妳說的 不敢說的愛

會不會有人 可以明白

我會發著呆 然後忘記妳

接著緊緊閉上眼

想著那一天 會有人代替

讓我不再想念妳

我會發著呆 然後微微笑

接著緊緊閉上眼

又想了一遍 妳溫柔的臉

在我忘記之前
心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線

妳已快看不見

* sniff sniff snorkle *

went down to KL today, it was like, ZOMG. so many PEOPLE and they are all DARK.and not fair. so many foriengners. bangas. HAHA. that’s what my mom calls those bangaladesh people. =), anyways. every corner and every place , all crowded with those people. not to say io’m racist, but it kinda gets a LITTLE scary sometimes. so i didnt get out of the car.

so insteadddddddd. changed plans and went to MV and i saw

I MEAN EWWWWWWWW

it was BORING> MV WAS BORING BORING BORING>