fuck everything i have. screw everyone i know. i hate everything
i dont know the whole meaning of my life. i dont understand why someone has a better life than others. i dont understand why there are the rich and the poor, and also why the school is classified to nerds, jocks, popularpeople, pretty people, ugly people, bookworm, and etc. is it really THAT important? why cant everyone be treated like an equal?
going to school, being discriminated and being looked down is not what anyone wants. nor is being bullied and being hustled around. everyone has thier pride. so do i. nowadays, i really loathe school. every single thing about it. it’s not like, oh, i’m not sociable enough and i dont get any attention or whatsoever. but then, when you have just too many friends around you, you wont have a best friend. what’s the point of knowing so many people whom you know, they wont help you when you are down , they wont be there to witness the day you succeed. i dont know. this is what’s going through my head right now.
there’s no need for so many friends. there’s no NEED for me to go around acting like a stupid clown and jump around when i see anyone. what’s the point. go fuck everyone. i daresay. im really TIRED .
for so many years ive being decieved by so many friends. i’ve tolerated for so long, till now, i feel like killing myself. i cant stop wondering why, why did they do this to me. why does every friendship i encounter fall down to pieces? i’ve asked myself countless of times, what did i do wrong, eveyrtime, i try to change myself to be a better person. but atlast, WHATS THE POINT. there’s no meaning in my life
im better left alone.
