aiyan downright.

i dont know the whole meaning of my life. i dont understand why someone has a better life than others. i dont understand why there are the rich and the poor, and also why the school is classified to nerds, jocks, popularpeople, pretty people, ugly people, bookworm, and etc. is it really THAT important? why cant everyone be treated like an equal?

going to school, being discriminated and being looked down is not what anyone wants. nor is being bullied and being hustled around. everyone has thier pride. so do i. nowadays, i really loathe school. every single thing about it. it’s not like, oh, i’m not sociable enough and i dont get any attention or whatsoever. but then, when you have just too many friends around you, you wont have a best friend. what’s the point of knowing so many people whom you know, they wont help you when you are down , they wont be there to witness the day you succeed. i dont know. this is what’s going through my head right now.

there’s no need for so many friends. there’s no NEED for me to go around acting like a stupid clown and jump around when i see anyone. what’s the point. go fuck everyone. i daresay. im really TIRED .

for so many years ive being decieved by so many friends. i’ve tolerated for so long, till now, i feel like killing myself. i cant stop wondering why, why did they do this to me. why does every friendship i encounter fall down to pieces? i’ve asked myself countless of times, what did i do wrong, eveyrtime, i try to change myself to be a better person. but atlast, WHATS THE POINT. there’s no meaning in my life

im better left alone.

原来我的电脑可以打中文字的哦！这我现在才懂。可以帮我进步我的华语现在想到以前在初中一的我。是那么的不懂事。踏进了公中的第一步，觉得自己超级渺小，应为刚毕业的我真的什么事都不懂得啊，。过了将多年才发觉到原来人生是那么的不公平，那呢么的现实，在中学，如果你就一直读书，别人会把你当书呆子看待你恨美，别人会当你神来拜， 如果你背叛了圈里的朋友，或者就是对他的那个没有礼貌，圈里的[朋友都会排气你，冷漠你，不合你说活，甚至可以对你报仇。如果你真真的想，这些是以免太幼稚了吧…… 有些人，为了要让自己出名，他都会做什么大胆的事 ， 来让自己被发现，每一次训导主人把那一些名字叫出来， 他自己会好像很风光一般。也许你会说我的知识浅吧，也许 这就是所谓的“学校政治”吧。在学校里，我并不是出名的，我不是什么人-都-认-识 的一个人，我只是一为普通的学生在一间塘大的学校就读。就像王力宏的一首简单的歌一样， 并没有什么独特，看见我旁边的朋友们，一个一个地成为学校里最出名的人，心里重会酸一下，但过了不久，就过回一样的生活啊。重而言之，我最不喜欢的事都在学校里发生。 可以说是很多坏的东西吧。我这个人的人缘不会比其他人的好，每一起交朋友都会遇到一些困难，连续3年都是这样，被朋友抛弃，被他们排侧，也许我的个性的问题。如今。这已经不是我人身的障碍。我已经学会排侧一些不重要的东西。

尚偌。。

我以前的朋友 可以再次和我交回朋友。。

我可以和他们保证。

我会尽我的能力

不会像以前一样。

但是。。

我们。。 好像不能做回朋友了

Perfect man,

你为什么把我的心走呢？

你最好在毕业之前给毁我好吗？

还有。

你。。

真的，不知道吗？