aiyan downright.

im going for the lm camp. it is well, suppose to be intresting, but then, i heard stories about how they’re going to torture you at night and how they’re stirct and stuffs. but in another objective, i think that it would be fun, if it was not for the pestering and the usual blabbering. and it’s currently RAINING and how on earth am i suppose to gather those goddamned woods. might as well starve.

and plus, i did the name tags, and karheng said it was SHIT so i guess i NEED to redo them all over agian. well, frankly speaking to me it wasnt shit. apparantly he thinks it’s shite. sigh. no matter what i try to do in LM it’s invinsible

first there’s a lot of stupid people who keeps hoggering those ajk’s and they go polishing their shoes, as though thier shoes aint shiny enough, then they go using THIER NAMES and ORDER US to do stuffs. and i especially hate those hypocrits and those who goes around ordering and NOT DOING STUFFS . ok. enough of the ranting. i need to get started. but where?

oh anyone know the so you think you can dance guy, the chris guy?

apparantly me and sucehn were standing outside dominoes

and he walked pass us, with the modern dance club

and she went hyper.

after a while, she went in dominoes

and screamed

CHRIS I LOVE YOU

and ran out.

left me there, with embarrasment.

and that’s how i spent my stupid day

but chris is sorta hot. LOL

i cant stand it. i dont know why

i feel really really down today.

i cant tell why. it’s like,

very much complicated.

life now totally sucks.

didnt know that i was called the LOLLIPOP girl.

situation: cross section at the jalan gasing there
People Involved : Me, Zhuan Zhuan

aiyan: so where you want to eat?
z : i tot you want to go 711?
aiyan : where got? ididnt say also.
z: i tot you want to buy lollipop?
aiyan : what FOR?!
z : last year all my friends know you as the lollipop girl. coz they always see you eating lollipop
after school so they call you the LOLLIPOP GIRL

aiyan : speechless.

anything but lollipop girl.

and the suchen told me that her sister told her THAT kelton they all used to talk about me. about the lollipop girl. that’s my new name. shite.

i read beh rong cheng’s blog. he’s just like what? the lim kit siang’s blog , all being so negative and stuffs. and mocking people. beh, it aint that necessary to do that kinda stuff you know. it’s not the way to get yourself being hatred.

apparantly today, i dont know. didnt get to skip class and do the tents deco because apparantly all the form fivers already bagged the stupid opportunity so i felt like a total useless bum, excistence not important. transparent and all those rablabla

so in class, i was listening to how chun kit was mentioning his gala concert tomorrow, seems like it’ll be held in conjunction with the annual sports day and that no one would be celebrating sports as they’ll all be at his live concert. AND APPARANTLY all those people who are doing tents are stuffs are actually preparing for his stage, and the set up and all those stuffs. cool imagination.

and after recess there wasnt much talk. need to pass up moral folio. darn.

and afterschool, had LM meeting, talked about the teachers day thingy, then me and a few people asked for early exit coz we need to do the tent deco.

and we went to kiraan’s house which is very nearvy and painted that gigantic axe. i’m not staying back. who wants to? i mean, i admit that I WANT TO, but my parents FORBID ME TO so what’s the point? they dont let me do stuffs like staying overtnight. too dangerous.

i’m going to have a busy week.

i was just sitting at the tapak, talking to careen about her one-week streak about not coming to school, and suddenly i heared my name being announced by mslina AGAIN the ump-teenth time. it’s frustrating and humiliating. you should see how many heads looked at me when my name was called. galah

so class was boring as usual i wont go in to detail. i cant even go! tthere’s NO DETAIL! just boring classes. after schoolw as practicaly much more fun . went out to lunch with suchen, winnie and liz. I LOVE ROTI PISANG. there. marks the end of it.

went to hui fern’s house. it was awkward. stepping into a house which i never stepped in before, so i started looking around LAH, then fern went like, you look like you’re in a museum or smthn, i mean, she looks so preety in the pictures. how could i NOT look. you TELL ME .

then we went online, helped her look for a list of songs. and with love is NOT NICE. i mean, it’s wierd and so not hilary’s HEY NOW HEY NOW type. i mean, i jsut dont get it like how suchen doesnt get chinese music. that’s that! t

hen went to 711 just in time, but dad came at 4.30 so i was very early. and then met so many people there. sigh. sometimes i wish that i dont know that many people. it’s confusing and remembering all the names and their history. it’s frustrating for me. but maybe some people think that they want to know more people, just to be the IT person and be te popular one. stupid thinking.

piano was disastorous. i forgot to practice. beat me up. and exam’s around the corner and teacher’s taking it so seriusly! she no more sits down next to me and patiently explain my wrong doings. she stands up and listen to me play and screams at me for NOT HAVING FEELINGS> so i guess that i should add in 3 hours of practice every day. sigh 6th of june.

SIXTH OF JUNE!

jia hui called like 9++ yesterday night, asked me to go back to school today at 9-3. i wanted to, but as usual. my parents DIDNT LET ME. and i’m going to be so screwed. she’s going to be ultra mad. i want to take part. but i just hope that she doesnt call me in the middle of a night outing and ask me to go back. it’s last minute and no one likes that.

well. i woke up at 12 and went to the book fair. so called. i CAME OUT WITHOUT BUYING A SINGLE BOOK. * applause* i mean, how often can you go to a book fair and not buy anything?! and after that, i came home at 3 and started STUDYING ACCOUNTS. mind you, i studied 6 CHAPTERS ALL BY MYLSEF WITHOUT TUITION TEACHERS OR WHATSOEVER. and i’m kinda proud. like duh! and you know, they ask you to sign up for accounts in school and dont ask the teachers to teach. and i knew it like, last week. and now total impromptu !

我掉進愛情懸崖 跌太深爬不出來

下降的速度太快 來不及踏上未來

該怎麼逃開 我控制不來

如果說分手 是苦痛的起點

那在終點之前 我願意再愛一遍

想要對妳說的 不敢說的愛

會不會有人 可以明白

我會發著呆 然後忘記妳

接著緊緊閉上眼

想著那一天 會有人代替

讓我不再想念妳

我會發著呆 然後微微笑

接著緊緊閉上眼

又想了一遍 妳溫柔的臉

在我忘記之前
心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線

妳已快看不見

* sniff sniff snorkle *

went down to KL today, it was like, ZOMG. so many PEOPLE and they are all DARK.and not fair. so many foriengners. bangas. HAHA. that’s what my mom calls those bangaladesh people. =), anyways. every corner and every place , all crowded with those people. not to say io’m racist, but it kinda gets a LITTLE scary sometimes. so i didnt get out of the car.

so insteadddddddd. changed plans and went to MV and i saw

I MEAN EWWWWWWWW

it was BORING> MV WAS BORING BORING BORING>

To be frank this was yesterday’s post. Was lazy to update. I spent 15 minutes in bed, trying to think, whether I should bring my cell phone to school . or not. But then, my instincts told me NOT to, and I followed

THANK GOD I BLOODY FOLLOWED MY INSTINCTS.

We had a spot check. Apparently rebbie brought her cell and SOMEHOW someone knew about it and TADA here they come, hijacking our place. Throwing our books all over the place, fling fling bish boom dang dong. And the way they check your body, the go touching all over, and they say, oh I’m sorry this is the standard procedure. Heck who cares? And somemore, shern leng did that to me, the checking thing, I just giggled , and that prefect went like, STOPLAUGHING.

Well, in case you didn’t know my dear prefect, I cant simply just control my laughter. It’s a natural thang. And I presume that you know it, since you’re smart and stuffs. But things don’t seem that way. You don’t know. How sad. After the whole spotcheck thing, I lost my pink dingly thing, that cute one he bought me. And I’m starting to miss it already. It has been hanging from my baggie since this year and it sucks to see an empty keychain-free bag. =(( Now it MUST be in some cold, dark locker, waiting for my return. I will my darl. I will come back for you. You must tahan you know =)

During chem., or chemist as how my fellow friends pronounce it. ( But frankly, I strictly remember that chemist is actually a type of job and not a short abbreviation of chemistry. But somehow it is.) tuan hann had this pee problem. He was loaded and he DIDN’T DARE TO ASK THE TEACHER TO GO TO TOILET. And we went like, this is primary all over again. He said that the teacher had prejudice on him. So in the end, me suchen and chun kit couldn’t tahan his fidgeting and tahan=ing, we helped him ask the teacher. LOL. Stupid weyh <~!

About like 10 minutes before the school bell went off, I went with rebbie to find the form 6 guy she was text-ing . it turn out to be my squash vice president. How suprising,. She went on asking me whether he was CUTE? I went silent. Then when we reached his class, she ASKED ME TO GO INTO HIS CLASS AND ASK HIM OUT. After 5 minutes I did it with reluctance. Then after their chit chat, the bell rang, I HAD to dash, but I didn’t say out loud lahhh. Then she said AIYAN, I NEED TO SETTLE SOME STUFF WITH HIM, YOU GO BACK FIRST LAH. Then I had to go back alone. Ohwell.

Thing’s the way it is.

Boring day.

Doinkie signing off.