aiyan downright.

aiyan’s new year resolutions. incl but heck. i’m writing it all down

firstly. no matter what. i’m not going to fake myself through. whether i like that person or not, i’ll just tell direct, of course, too direct is not favourable. but whatev. just dont fake too much lah. dont like the attitude, then just scram. tada!

secondly, dont be to demanding. and bossy. i know i am. sometimes i tend to get over alittle bit, well, maybe over the head abit lah, but i promise i wont be. minimize it. but i’ll still voice out when ought to.

thirdly, try to get rid of my social life. too many people are involved in my life, cut some away. not to say that i dont want to be friends with them, there are just too many things for me to be worried to.

fourthly, study hard and mean it this time. not everytime u get  lucky. and have eerything organised. and stop being a procrastinator

and last but not the least, make people happy =)

happy new year people. i love ya

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SCORED 8 A’S. U KNOW? 8 A’S. STRAIGHT ~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thats all i can say about today. well, not really. today was really nice =)

i went to school kinda early, the stupid school adminstrator kept on delaying the time the results should be out. screw them, they only make people more nervous ! met tien  yi and her friend out side by the new thingy they have at school, ( mind you, the classes from 2C3-2B2 or 5S1-5S4 had all been marblelized. or is there such word. but its really nice and clean and porsh ) then screw them i found beh rong cheng! ok, maybe no one can read this since internet is down ( screw taiwan) so thank god i still have friendster…

then we went to the chicken rice shop to have a brief lunch, it was cheap and yummy, to me, and when we were heading back to school, WE SAW  people already heading into the HALL! we ran in, then everyone was seatted acording to thie classes. then after a gruelsome 30 minutes, the teachers started marching in and everyone applauded ( whats the use of applauding when you know you’re going to be in deep shit? ) then it started with pn tan lin’s oh-so-encouraging speech. then it BEGAN! and it went row by row, oh-so-strict, but when they stood up, they applauded again, i mean, thats the chs spirit !

Then , row by row they went, i got more and more anxious, like duh, people like wen xiang, zhi choong got 3 A’s, my class KT, which the brain of our class just manage to scrape 4 A’s and so did kar wai, man she was crying like mad, they paparrazzi’s were taking all her pcitures. i went like T_______T" .

row by row row by row..

then it was like MY TURN. i was numb, i walked to ms poon, first she asked me to sign this thing, then she shook her head, and went like, aiyan, i think you should treat me, or wait, i should treat you, then my heart went stone cold, then she showed me my slip, then iscreamed and jumped up, my teacher went like, i’m so proud of you. i CRIED !!

then i ran out of the hall, called my parents and they teared, but not as bad as i did, come on weyh, this is aiyan your’re talking about. she doesnt do her hw and she rarely studies, i still cant get over this, so on-cloud-nine. and my uncle called, i told him i got 8, he went like, how many subject did u take ( !!!!!) i went like 8, he screamed weyh ! looks like i’m getting a new phone after all.

this is the best birthday present that i got for my mom. =). proud.

gosh. i still think that i’m going to scrape NO A’S… maybe, my composition, all three languages got out of hand? maybe
the examiner didnt like my way of writing, or style? maybe my history is not that great as i thought it would. maybe i
screwed up in those essays that i wrote. maybe i was being too confident in PMR and i just lost it? or just, maybe i’m
worrying just a little too much

dad says that everything is already fated, meant to be, and you cant do anything, or can do nothing, to change that fact
what i should be worrying about is before PMR, and worrying after PMR is like, worrying after nothing. arthur said that the
night before PMR results, you cant go to sleep at all , i hope that that doesnt happen to me tonight, i had a dream about
kimi last night, for those of you who doesnt know my obsession towards kimi raikkonen, go back to kindy =)

and tomorrow, i’m going to go out with whoever is going out . just stick with them and jubilate, if i have the chance to.
i mean, what if i get just 3 or 4 or maybe NO a’s? ( here we go again lala ) but no matter what, its all over, its just the result
quote tien yi :" why cant we take exams and never know the results ‘ that would be so nice, only the goverment will know
we’ll just lie underneath the sheep skin, knowing nothing.

why am i worrying about the results, thats what i’ve been asking. u know, my relatives asked me today,

aunty : aiyan-ah, your pmr results coming out tomorrow, scared a-not?
aiyan : um.. ok lah
mom: ai-yah, the results nothing one-lah, ( this is weird, my mom never speaks like that )
aiyan : right..

&* back at home, on the lovely couch *&

mom : oh shit, your pmr results are coming out tomorrow, i’m so nervous for you
aiyan : but it was you who said that it didnt matter! ( oh-so-shocked )
mom : that was just a cover up, dont you understnad !
aiyan : i never understand.

ohwel. pray. pray. pray. it maybe no use, but its worht a shot, who knows, i may appear in the newspaper
gawd. as if ?!

note to selff. i swear i’m going to cut down on hair spray. its killing my hair,

just came back from ikea, curve, ikano and tesco, i dont know what that
place is called, so i’ll jsut name them alll. i went to watsons to buy
my nail polish which i broke yesterday night, by accident, and i saw
alwin !! in juice works working. 5 dollars an hour. but today 3 times
the pay, he’ll be loaded by the end of the day. wearing that stupid
santa cap and serving people testers. i was like, wth ! then i went to
ikea, bought some fake flowers and some markers and the xmas
decorations, bling bling’s were all discounted ! T________T"

paid up at the counter, was really suprised to see suet ching recieving
my money, i mean, its really wierd when people you know being the
cashier, or serve u stuffs. very un-natural. then suet ching told me
that zhuan2 was coming over at night, lol, they look so couple-ish. but
they arent. at least, thats what i think lah. ching popped me a
lollipop! love her <3!

2 more days till i actually know my results. i cant wait. as if.

i’m so bored. middle of the night. and i have something to confess to some people. i already confessed to tien yi and she went like, screw you Lee Ai yan. i mean. its not that bad right. its just that, a name switch, thats all. and another gurl went berserk that i’ve been u know, keeping something under the clothes. ohwel. time to get over it.

just came back from yamaha. i had this really wierd dream, but on NO ACCOUNT that i shall post it here, go read xanga.

went to yamaha, i found out that the christine gurl wasnt that bad. i mean, we’re doing it for the academy, and i just like thought her a thing or tow. which was like kinda fun. why be all so jealous of not getting the part where my part is just as important. we work as a team and not being so selfish. alleluja.

alwin sang lips of an angel to somone special. that was just so sweet ! really.

i cant wait for genting.

my hair totally sucks after the so called oil treatment at clara’s. it’s so not worth it ! ok. its about aiyan and barnyard. i downloaded this show, called barnyard, which is about to air in the cinemas in malaysia todya.

it starts when the farmer goes around doing his chores, like feeding the chicken, give the cow some fresh grass and stuffs. then the farmer goes off, and all the animals starts to stand up on thier FEET and walk like humans. and then they have this animal meeting , and a dog celebrated its 13th birthday and he looked like HELL. and the meeting started, the cow, Odis, had this phown call and it was like the motorola thing, like hellomoto? ahah. and then the chickens were throwing darts at the KFC guy, the old guy ! and there was this chicken who sat on the pool table and laid an EGG and someone mistaken it for this white ball and the yolk just burst into him. and so on…

today was actually a gloomy day. i wasnt really that aniticipated in joining any conversations at ALL . i’m having very serious PMS. but i dont have pimples. and another 12 more DAYS. its to SHOCKING ! i seriously cant take it. if you dont konw what i’m talking about, PMR RESUTLS. amen.

I WANT to do the recording !! but i cant because he set the date ONLY at 18th and 19th, where i’m suppose to be IN GENTING> GOSH. that’s like once only chance to actually do an album. i totally BLEW IT. and its not like i’m regretting going to genting. but still.. sigh.

anyway. i had another wierd dream.and these dreams got to go.

situatuation : in a mamak stall. venue unknown

and so, me munxin and SARAH was yamcha-ing at a mamak stall, i somehow ordered LIQUOR!! and when the bill came, it came to a close 200 bucks. i sat there and argued with the indian tauke, saying that its so not fair to have this small bottle of liquor for like 200 bucks. it was so devrastrating ! and suddenly, out of nowhere, the mppj ppl came and suddenly there was this raid. they qucikyl like stuff everything into this cupboard and i didnt know what to do, in a cliche, i saw my MOM. and she wasnt suppose to BE THERE. she’s in TAIWAN having a jolly good time (!!) and then everybody fled. actually no. some fella woke me up. eesh. but thank god he did.

today. i had this piano class. and alwin tied his hair up like htis japanese guy, and since his hair was like long, and small eyes, i give him a 99 for a jap chap.

and then, joel asked me to go out to watch eragon, i couldnt, he asked me to go to this concert, by school kids, our age, i dont know . and ohwel. here are part of the lyrics of bai long. gosh. so nice -) 15 year olds and internatoinal standard

每次我 在人群中被灌洒着寂寞
每次我 为失去什么而伤心难过
总有你 月光的笑容
告诉我对自己要温柔
再怎么失落 你身后一定有我

我也有 被影子的黑污染的时候
我也有 两行泪随时从眼眶逆流
总有你 月光的笑容
告诉我无论什么时候
一定有我 一定有你 陪我

月光温柔 照亮了我
也染黄了小时候
发现我每步你都陪我走过
每一次炎夏和寒冬

月光温柔 歌正悠悠
我们唱走多少个伤口
从此以后 我们学会走
你的笑容是我心中 午夜的彩虹

现在的我们是终究要走 要分手
你的一切笑和哭都会收进我胸口
月光温柔

goodness gracious, ihad this stupid and outrageous dream . ok, it started at the piano class there, me and a few of my friends were talking, then i accidently dropped something onto his thingy, then i went like, sorry . and he said like, its not the first time. dont worry (T______________T)

and then, it went to this stage, where my mom appeared in our house. but i know that its impossible. coz my mom is in TAIWAN. and then i found out that that person who is the imposter of my mom is actually a GHOST POSSESSING SOMEONE. ( act after watching ghost movies ) it was GHASTLY !

and then and then. there was this point, where me and lings were like suppose to go to GENTING, but then i ended up going with JANE on a small taxi, and instead of fisr world hotel, it was at PUAY CHAI ( !!! ) and everything was wierd. i was carrying my luggage going up 5 storeys high, then we reached the hall, i heard the Phantom of the Opera, and LEE YEE MUN was playing that piece, on a piano, and i had this cable in my hand, iw anted to like make it work, so i went forward, then the whole hall blackout .. gGRRRR . when it blackout, i ran to the back, but someone saw me, and she pointed at me once the instructer asked who is it. and i got PUBLIC CANING!

and it came to a point where there was this part at the pool side, everyone that i know was invited, but there were some strange things, i had this real bitch fight with HELENA, my BEST FRIEND, and shih xuan was acting really bitchy. that i DONT KNOW WHY !!! then i saw JOSHUA ANG. from the i not stupid 1 and 2, but obviously from 2, he was so cute, he was dating some person from school, then ditched that person and came to me ( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

AND THEN, dont know why again, we were up at genting, then  me and jane went shoping at ACE HARDWARE.. and my dad was with this girl whom i claim is the 3rd person in the family, he bought her everything that she wanted, and he doesnt really actually buy me stuffs. i ran up to that women and shouted bitch at her.

and then, i didnt know how ditched jane and ended up with a couple of girls and went BRA SHOPPING. and thats weird. then i saw shaun, and told him to tell that his best friend was a jerk. and that joshua guy came running after me and said he was sorry and we went out hand in hand and then i saw my parents. and i was shocked.

to me, the whole dream was just to much to take in one night. bless me .

mom went to taiwan, and its just me and my daddy alone, my grandmother coming back from china tonight, so am staying up till god knows what time till she calls, my pet bro and sis are coming back from austrailia. hope to see them tomorow. 12/12 is really a very airport-ish day. not to mention trips to the can be really boring. but i’m a good soul. i know

going to make pizza tomorrow whee ! and hope granny brings back chinese books for me. so in love with them

my husbands.
#1. kimi martais raikkonen
#2. micheal kenji shinoda