aiyan downright.

i DIDNT KNOW HE CAME !!! OMFG.i was like setteled down for his absence then when me and helena were like sitting in the canteen at about 12.40, he was like marching down near the ex-dustbin ! my eyes were like SO BIG staring at him and he stared back. it was weird. then he disappeared to the canteen then when me hel wanted to get up, he was at the back of me with his group of friends and i went like WTH.

and before that, how we got back in to school, we were lepak-ing around the mamak then we saw the trip people coming back and we sneaked back in ^^"

then, after school, we wer elike, in dominoes ordeing pizza for tomorrow.then when i went to 711 to get extra coke, stupid hao wei was there and oh, did i say i invited ding chao and hao wei too? that stupidguy didnt even look at me u know. he just stomped off. stupid guy -.-". oh. then at the bus stop, while waiting for mah mommy, he was there, tch ! sitting there, oh-so-yeng type. we had eye contact. few seconds thats all

p/s. anyone intrested inpizza, please join me tomorrow. birthday celebratioon ~!

ok well. i’m currently in the cyber in amcorp mall, because SOMEONE just pulled me out of the school just to eat mcdonalds and now its like 9.30 am and he stupid stall is not open yet, so here hwe are waiting and well, onlining in a way,

stupid marcus yap didnt wait for me at the god damned mamak stall. what  hell ! but i saw my darling waiting there, she had her hair all tied up and looked so near in it. screamed when i saw her. i didnt see her like in how maby days aculaly. sorry fr the typing error. my left finger has something kinda wrong in it., iu cant believe i’m actually missing futsal and all everyting. AAA. i wana go back to school @ i wana watch ron ccheng play futsal, i wana watch ah sam play. whyyy ! damn. tomorrow is mah pizza party.

and i’ve not yet given out all the invitations actually. coz someone has HAD to pul me out of school. and amirul is with us too. i cant believe that the assuntarins are like falling madly for him. i mean, eah, he is cute in some way, but he is super duper like immature in A LOT OF WAYS and i still dont know why everyone is falling for him. same goes to samuel . .

and by the way, i saw hao wei like so many times today. and god damn  him/. i saw him like 4 times alone this morning.i cant take my mind of him. but whatever. i guess my life wont be the same anymore.s

listen to this.

bra bra black sheep have u any sperm
yes sir yes sir 3 balls full
one for the prostitute in chow kit
2 for the little slut crying down the street.

that is what i call a pervert. thank you.

why everyone came out from thier mothers womb on like end of october and early november? i can just list out the people that are born in this two thingys.

me of course, marcus, sarah ng, purani, chiah chyi, yichen, mon wei, muan sze, pui theng, carine, and lots lots lots. i cant even finish its. thundering right now. but whatsoever. so many presents to buy, so many wishes to wish. but ohwel. why am i wishing them. haha. dont know lah. and by the way

anyone who wants to eat free pizza may come on tuesday morning. thank you very much

why is everyone changing school? or what? migrating or whatever. why cant they just stay at chs? all my friends are disappearing to some god know where school. URGH. i will surely surely miss then ><~. fuck thier parents

i jsut came back from waht? u call. teaching. yeah. aiyan is actually teaching for a change. to make more money to shop tomorrow with her bestie. winks. 150 a person aint that bad after all. but it really takes much patience and tolerance in this job. i htink all jobs are like that. ohwel. tired.

ohwel.in this case, letmejust expressmy thoughtsonbrashooping. u know what? its difficult to buy a really nice and good and reasonable bra nowadays? firstly, you go to those u know, branded bra shops in mid valley, like xixili and what u call.. La Senza, d xoxo all those lah, u go in there, those bra tops are really nice and attractive, and the clors are really nice ! but then, the price is really breathtaking in a way. i would never pay like 120plus for a stupid bra which is an undergarment, why buy so expensive thingy for something that people wont be able to see? its underneath ur clothes weyh.

next, you go in to jaya jusco, for all those 10 bucks for one bra. the colors are OK, in a sense where its value for money, but i tell you, the PADDINGS, u obviously know what are paddings right? those u know, to make your boobs look bigger than normal thingy, i still dont understand why ppl want their boobs to be like big, its really uncomfortable looking down and staring at two big mountainss. ok, and the wired bras, they are like so uncomfortable. really. u dont trust me u can go and try it yourself. its like, undescriba-ble pain. ahah. in a way.

finally, you go to to urhm, those not so expensive and not so cheap stores, their bras are urhm, what u call, nothing. just cloth. which is not how a bra suppose to be. and i dont know why did they actually created this thingy. conclusiony, its difficult buying a really nice and comfortable bra nowadays.

p.s. even samuel can see that i dont have a best friend. see below.
dont turn your back on me,i wont be ignored says: how did u know i dont have a bestie? is it obvious
~ŚãmǔęĽ~ ™………..podcasting said: yea. one day you are mixing with this gang, and the next day you;re with another gang.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most
us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice,
solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our
wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with
us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour
of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not
healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a
friend who cares.

        - aiyan. ddoinkie.bitch c.-

after walking about like what? 5 hours aimlessly in one utama with my family and buying like tones of stuffs, i came to decide that , i must start studying. i dont know why that idea came to my head. SPM seems so near from this point of view. i really miss those u know, having things to do times and now i’m slacking 24/7. my brain is dead u know, i cant even do a simple sum of maths. really. thats how terror i have become. so dearest god, bless me.

and u know what? i’m the one who started the whole doinkie thing?> and this gurl, she asked ME to stop putting the DOINK word and SHE put it in her friendster name. wtf is all of this shit ? hello? i am the one who actually created this word. stupid name stealer.

and gues what? tan chun hoe thinks i’m stalking him. which i’m, not. i dont ev en know him. how to stalk? stupid perasan guy.

i dont know what is wrong with people?
are they meant to be so ‘kepo’?
why must they always invade other people’s privacy?

i cant , still cant face the fact.
that he thinks i’m stalking him
and so does everyone else.
the problem here is, i’m not.

i dont even talk to him in school.
left alone the space to actually like him?
dont they get the fact that
aiyan is currently loving her life without boys?