aiyan downright.

so, tien yi just came to my house and used the internet to
update her blog and went back. I’ll start from the beginning of the day.

it started off with a wet day, I don’t know why but nowadays it
seems like raining EVERY MORNING, which is a bad thing. then, I just walked
back to class. p/s. today I tied like pig tails so its like awkward. since like
no one ever sees me tying two’s only one pony tail. so, it started of with siti’s
surprise saying that whats wrong with my hair and something something, amirul
calling me an immature for tying two, then soon yong went like, you look like a
ghost. but all of that doesn’t really matter right now.

then the form teacher came in and wanted to like change our
places. she didn’t notice that we already like secretly changed them all and
she went like, aiyan, you sit with her meh and all those shit. but in the end,
since we were just TOO TALKATIVE, she said she’ll think about everything and
tomorrow will be judgment day.  I don’t want
to change place. sniff.

and I HATE THE RAIn, but to be ironic, I love the rain too. hate
it coz I cant see him today, couldn’t pjk in the state of the rain, love it coz
we skipped assembly today. no boring speeches. whooot ! I think Jolene dislikes
me. oh well

saw him during recess. I went gaga. ahha. its like, he was
walking with this bald dude, and I just said to siti, he seemed to have more
hair then usual. swtnes ! I don’t know why, its like, 2 whole days without his
image. miss him so much =[

tien yi just like dropped by at my house. it was so LAST
MINUITE. she decided it in the bus stop and luckily my mom agreed. coz she was
blocking the whole road and she didn’t want anyone to horn her and blah,she immediately
agreed. which is a GOOD THING. went online for a few hours with the alasan of
tien yi wanting to like do her folio. come to think of it, she’s such a dear.

I asked tien yi a question, should I like, like chun hoe? and
she went like, don’t be stupid. LOL. ahha. for fun wei.

okays

, I
don’t know why, when my mum is teaching me like maths and other subjects, I feel
really STUPID around her. she’s like yeah, the science whiz and has a master in
maths, and when she like corrects my work, all the sums that I do are like ALL
WRONG and when I just yawned, then she went like, u just go and join the Malaysian
idol lah, I wonder what the age group is like, maybe when u succeed, I wont like have to teach you maths and don’t need to
worry about your subjects anymore.’ then I went like, I hate u and dashed up to
my room, which is where I am sitting, comfortably typing this thing. this is
like the only place where I can really share my thoughts with, I cant tell
anyone. I don’t have anyone really. hate being the ONLY child. ok. maybe being
the only child is kinda good where u get all the pampering and being fussed
about. but it really has the disadvantages. first thing, your parents go
oh-so-protective over you and they don’t let you do the things you actually want.
and they ACTUALLY THINK that they know you, which they don’t. and they will
like, say things like, u look at your cousin, they can go to austrialia and
study and blah, you must also do the same . oh whatever. I hate weekends. its
those days where you cant see friends and you’re like in prison. I don’t have
tuition. so I cant like see anyone during weekends. my phone is currently in
safe keeping, so that means like no sms-ing and no talking on the phone, just
me and msn. oh well.

I can really go on forever you know, typing all those not so
important stuffs. wait. since I’m really free. let me tell u this. I think that
Thompson and sheng zu, two guy friends are REALLY ALIKE. u know. the way they
walk is like shaking the upper body, maybe I’m exaggerating, its u know, the
dilly-dally type, then their hair is spiked up and long, they have the same
black sling bag, if not mistaken, and well, sheng zu is more smaller sized and
shorter LAH. and sheng zu’s eyes is way smaller then thompson’s. but the way
either of them walks really reminds me of the other them. ooh. aiyan’s crapping
again. blee blah

tien yi I so miss you ! I
want your god damned modem to like recover from the lightning shock and come
talk to me. haha. honestly, tomorrow our form teacher is going to change all
our sitting positions and now I’m worrying on like who to sit with. I don’t want
to sit with ooi , and some other faggots, I want yichen. she’s like the only
one for me. well. not really though. ahah . and four of us is going to be like separated
which is such a bad thing. we cant like talk adee.

and Thompson, if you are reading this, you better tell your class
mates about the chun hoe thingy kies. I want it to die away. don’t u know how to
spell the word embarrassing ? and my friend said that chun hoe is kinda like going
out with her sister. whatever that means.

and by the way, everyone is starting to study. oh no. they really
are crazy. they started doing all those model paper thingy and they stay back and
hang out at burger king and group study. oh no oh no. things are going bad.

♥ î-ÿĀňŹ ĿēĔ ♥

u know what? I’ve not been studying. hell yeah. pmr is just like
around the corner and yet I’m still procrastinating and I’m dilly-dallying and I
don’t know what to do now. maybe I should just get a grip and start working my
ass out of me. who knows, maybe I can scrape one or two a’s and whee. the form
teacher said that I could get 5 if I like get the job done. if I don’t, I’m
done for.

and well. watchin mr. bean right now. not exactly a good way to
start. but I can survive. just like ahha…

I’m not being a negativator. Tristan said that I’m always sad, Thompson
says I think negative,

pei

minn

said I’m being oh
so negative, and my dear old friend said that it really has no harm thinking
positive at times. I mean, the main reason that I go so negative its coz if I think
TOO POSITIVE, I would like, get disappointed in the end if things doesn’t turn
out my way. and if I think like negatively, I would just like have some happy
ending sorta fantasy type.

signing off. I miss chocolates ><”

today today, what about today. oh well. reached school after
being shouted by mom at the car. met teck seang, I didn’t see him at first
until he said hi and we walked in together. I mean, he told me that he ALWAYS
see him, u know, the him him. then I went like, when? teck seang says everyday
at the bus stop. gosh. for the first time in my life, I’m like, why cant I be
teck seang for a change. sigh. today we had this surprising assembly. some
teacher retired or smthn. I love the school prefects. thank them for like
changing the pelan duduk or smthn like dhat, I can see him so clearly. whee. !

apparently, siti got hit by her parents and well, I can feel her
sadness. so, my duty now is to like cheer her up and give her support whee. I
always see his BAG and I don’t see his FACE and its not like I’m desperate.

pjk period was just stupid. dribble the ball and throw,
basketball I mean, and after the shooting thing, teacher called us to like form
a circle and throw the ball to each other. god bless pn shanti

when we were on the way to change our clothes, I saw this huge
batch of pupils in the tapak and iw ent like, they have such nice talents. then
suddenly I saw Thompson and I went like. oh no. it’s a class. not a group of
talented heck, then I don’t know lah, pui yee said they were like whispering
and turning hyper and my brain just interpreted – its tan chun hoe’s class. my
so-called crush that some lamer dude created. so, I just turned around and
chao-ed. damn those fools. wakakak >.~.

so, recess was utterly dull. there’s no doubt about that. saw
him through his class window. everyone in his class was like sitting up
straight and he was lying down, doing something. then I told siti : wheii.
look, he’s doing his homework. so cuh-uwte. then I looked for the second time,
he was sleeping. T____T”.

met  Thompson kwongy. he went like chun hoe chun hoe. then
I just wanted to bash him up but u know, how can u like bash him when he’s like
so dilly dally-ing. haha. oh well. it will die away lah the chun hoe thing.
praying.

Friday’s are the day where aiyan is really miserable. she goes
like so sad and sulky on Fridays. I don’t know. Fridays can be like so nice and
sweet. ahem. last Friday =D. and Fridays I can go down. I can just draw a graph
of my heart going like this -/\/\/\/\\\\\\\\\////. u wont understand. its
sorta. ah. nvm. I’m craping. blah.

there’s something crawling in my room. maybe a cockroach. eew.no. its flying. ah. mating time. aa…

and currently, there’s this guy in form 4 im-ing my saying that I miss you and blah even though I don’t know him and he still keeps on saying those yucky stuffs. eesh.

today started of wet. really. it was SO COLD. I was FREEZING when I came out of the car and walking in to school I was just hugging my books and pray for sunshine. but it didn’t happen. it kept being miserable. met tien yi and showed her the conver. she went like, its like so lame. but I went like, its not lame, everything that’s got to do with him is un-lame.

well, I hated class. it was cold, miserable and to have history first period is just SO NOT COOL. and abdul manab just like taught us the meaning of ‘ Malaysia yang berdaulat’ and how the previous leaders like ditch Singapore and what-everrr. BUT there’s one good thing. we covered the text book, so its like, I don’t have to bring that anymore.

siti got suspended from school for 2 days. its just so not fair. ok , maybe she was wrong for not telling her parents about this parents day. but it doesn’t mean the school can just suspend her. she told me when she was like in the discipline room, her parents were ALREADY there and I really hope she’s ok right now. since u know, she was like crying and not wanting to go home, if not her ass will be whacked by her parents. sighnex.

oh by the way. I hate our Chinese teacher. yap siow wei or whatever her name is, and I also appear tohate my science teacher. first, when we were passing the notes, the Chinese teacher just took it away. and scolded my like HELL . then, my science teacher, which is by the way, also my form teacher, said that if me and siti had the heart to actually apologize to the Chinese teacher, she’ll like forget about telling-the-teacher-that-we-passed-notes thing. BUT she LET THINGS SLIPPED and she told my parents about the whole me hating Chinese thingy. she said she did it UNITENTIONALLY and  I went like, hell yeah., unintentionally. like I would actually believe it. I cant believe that teachers can actually lie to us students. its so not what a teacher should be.

the PUSSYCATDOLLS concert was HELL AMAZING. everyone just flaunted their body with the music and mike and me went like, wow, PCD are HAWT> then when the song don’t cha which hit the world like tsunami came out, everyone sang it to the beat man, it was THE BOMB. but of course, its nothing compared to linkin park’s concert. the energy and stuffs. well, actually, I prefer LP. like DUH. I’m an LP FREAK and well, its better to see 6 hot guys jumping up and down then 6 hot chicks. haha. duh. I’m a gal. I love guys.

there’s this thing. I’m like so stressed coz my mom is pressuring me and like giving me so-called FREE TUITION to help out in my PMR which is like about a month away. no wait. the trials are a month away. oh whatever.

I’m not missing you. that’s just so true. listening to it now.
its just so nice. so what about today? it was  parent’s day. well, my life is pretty screwed
up because the Chinese teacher complained about me and she said was SO NOT
TRUE. about the passing notes thingy, it was so stupid. she said my mom forced
me to study Chinese, which is SO NOT TRUE, I said that my mom didn’t want me to
stay back today. eesh. and the form teacher asked for my mom’s handphone number
and pnyap wants to see my mom, sooner or later. there’s this thing. I wrote
stupid mom. oh mah gowd. and well, when I reached home, like duh, I knew, I got
a scolding and a whole half an hour lecture from mom and dad about my thing and
he said like you must focus on your studies since PMR is like so near and well,
I cant fail Chinese coz I’m a Chinese. uhhuh. im a banana. wait. I’d  rather  be a banana then to study Chinese. I didn’t see
him for ONE WHOLE DAY. which is torture.

owhkay. so, I will use my BRaiNS and well, do good in the
upcoming oral thing. I hate to like go infront and well, present whatsoever.

going to pussycat doll’s concert soon. wheee. they’re so sexy

loosen up my buttons babe. walah !

aiks. I’m so screwed up. by sherry ong, which in this case u don’t
know, its my english teacher whom I strongly dislike. actually, its like, I didn’t
prepare for the oral presentation, I mean, I prepared but didn’t have a
printer, so I asked this friend to help me print , it was kinda rush actually,
and hao wei deleted d file and he didn’t get to print it, when I heard it I was
like, hell, what am I to do? its sherry ong. she has prejudice on ME. and so ,
she scolded me like a piece of shit and I well, just nod my head and blah.
actually I told sherry in the morning, and I had to like prepare the script and
make my homies memories it in like 4 periods. a big nono. . I don’t know lah.
the presentation was sucky. she didn’t even give comments like she gave to
other groups. all she did was : its too short. bah. hate her. I so don’t like
her, she gave me like, so little marks for English. enough of her. talking
about her makes me puke. on the bright side of today…

* people keep on msg-ing me in msn, cant they see a BUSY?-

ok, so, today was kinda ok, and overall quite nice. I actually
hated the 3 periods of kh where the teacher doesn’t bother about us AT ALL.  really. she just sat there doing her own thing
and us doing our own, and well, its really bad having her as our living skills
teacher. and on pmr year too. wat the hell

writing blogs is so not gay. actually, its kinda nice having a
place to express everything and anything that you want to, and I have lots of
privacy. well. I think . I hope people don’t read blogs. or else my life will
be screwed.

don’t know why, he kept on like saying sorry, I saw him in the
morning, he didn’t print it out, he said sorry and I went like. aw. its nothing
–lah. then I didn’t get to see him like for one whole day, then after school. I
ate lunch with tien yi at the curry house there, when we were on the way to
711, I saw him, I went like, I don’t want to go there tien yi, then she said he
was going away, then I went like, wokies, coz he was actually walking away to
the bus stop, then he turned back, and said that he was really sorry, I didn’t
know what to say and well, I said that the thing in his arm was cute., ahha. so
not me. then we chao-ed. I cant believe it.he was actually TALKING to me. on account
on we NEVER talked after MSSS.

currently changing my passion with him to : strawberries.
cheers.

I hate my line, its like, everyone has problems with their comps.
tien yi’s modem is down, yichen’s comp is dead, and my line is flickering and I
may like off any moment and I cant sign in msn and I cant do the things I want
to, I cant call my friend to help me print my oral, I can like concentrate on
my studies coz I’m worried about tomorrow’s oral presentation. gosh, I asked
him to help me print, then I went off , I really hope that he knows and I really
need it tomorrow, that’s the whole thing about this electronics thingy. when u
like don’t need it, it always work. and when you are in this really desperate
point on having everything to do, its just not working. bah. technology.

today was ok.. I mean, its like the same old boring assembly,
just without the headmistress that is, and when I was like singin the stupid
songs, the 3 songs. and Nicholas went like, look, aiyan’s singing. I mean, come
on, I’m a nerd . wait, I’m turning into a nerd nowadays. I bring my text books,
I do work and I well, listen to teacher. at last, aiyan’s finding her god damn
roots.

ok, this is going to be ironic

then right, when we were in the science lab, I went like. listen
to ms poon, its important, its SCIENCE, and its IMPORTANT for your stupid
future, so, I was like,. go go go, listen to her. then when it was like after
all those scholding of the science practical, she went bragging about how good
we must be and how disappointed we made her and I went looking outside the
field, and BLAH. it was 5P2’S PJK.,.. hell. I went like, oh shyt, don’t let any
guys disturb u, just look at teacher and not at him. and well, as u know, aiyan
has this limit thingy and she looked at the field instead of teacher. bluek.

this is the first time in my life I need to see him ., and with
something important too. I cant find anyone who has a printer right now and I’m
going berserk. and I cant sign in msn, oh gosh. I pray, I’ll do anything Thy
wants. just ask hao wei to print out the god damned sketch. puh-lease? =D

from today onwards, aiyan is turning her love to strawberry-cheesecake icecream.

its ok zhen han, i know you’ll always be here when i need an ear =]

I hate it when microsoft word always break down. and I have
to like retype everything all ov er again. I was shocked and still am, when I viewed
his profile and he actually signs in to friendster and I went like, shit, maybe
he will like read my blog and I’ll be dead. but its nothing actually, he knows I
like him and that’s that .

aiyan here is trying to be positive, so peeps, please
cooperate kiez?

Chocolate milk and Wai san:hey.

a.i.y.a.n.z.- - -  hie

Chocolate milk and Wai san: erm..

Chocolate milk and Wai san: this is gonna be tough for anyone to accept,

Chocolate milk and Wai san: so..

Chocolate milk and Wai san: you must accept this fact

Chocolate milk and Wai san: that i’m actually gay!

a.i.y.a.n.z- hha,i know<

Chocolate milk and Wai san:: swt you know i’m gay? ok…well, thats weird

aiyanz : u know whwat

Chocolate milk and Wai san: how the hell?

a.i.y.a.n.ztats a real weird thing to say hao wei
Chocolate milk and Wai san :darn>
Chocolate milk and Wai san :i thought it would be a funny joke
it is actually

its really weird, he msg-ed me and told me he was gay. its like, ahah. funnye.