aiyan downright.

I don’t know lahhh./ that’s what you get as an answer from aaron
when you ask him anything. that’s weird, yet true . so aaron-ish. ohwell. today
I was LATE AGAIN> didn’t know why, when I entered the assembly ground, everyone
was like, seated already . and I had a huge problem finding my class, so ended
up seating with the a1’s. well, I got to be in the best class in the form
for about 20 minutes, which is good XD . then had to go through those
boring announcements and well. there’s one interesting thingy

there was this thing, about those form 6, they actually appealed
to the school that they don’t want helium balloons to be released tomorrow
because that the balloons may just end up in the sea one day and those oh-so-poor
see turtle’s will like choke to death coz they think that those balloons
were food. I mean, they really can think far, those form 6 students. salutes.

well. I still cant believe that he likes her. its not that u
know. its just, she’s vain and she’s all so bitchy and well, but love is 2
person’s thing. its not like I can give any comments or blah. so stop. whee.

the school looks great and its all prepared for the golden
jubilee, which is like, once in a life time, its really rare for someone to go
like 100. so just make it once in a life time thingy. all clubs are being
really supportive and its real cool to see everyone work together as a team and
help the school out . there’s something homely about catholic high school.
truly said.

I actually am longing for the carnival tomorrow. ms lina made it
sound fun and nice. and everything’s like, perfect. hope it doesn’t rain
though, please no !

I did a lot of things today, and that is really something to be
proud of. there aint no climax or anything, one of those oh-so-boring days.

 I tell u, I hate sleeping nowadays, the fact is that the stupid mosquitoes
keep on picking on me even though the air-con is on and all. I hate it.
and I had to like wrap myself under the quilt. eesh ! when I had the sense to
go to sleep, dad knocked the door and it was time to wake up. gosh. that’s the
4^th time this weekend.

 
for the first time this week, I didn’t meet tien yi, well, I missed
her. honest. didn’t know where was she. but hor, it was weird ahh. the sketch
by the prostar club was cool. I like d part where d football thing, the white
blood cell versus the HIV. it was cute and nice. and joel took part in it, as
usual, he was d u know, one-of-the-main-guys there. it was cool. as expected.
since they like did so many publicity on it. blahx.

today was d form 3 futsal 3 on 3. I don’t know. Arthur says it’s
4 on 4 since the goalie is counted and 3 on 3 is for basketball. wekks. our
class won ! whee. 2 out of 3. which is a good thing. since our basketball went
down-hill. so will see them in the final ! yay. the basketball matches was
cool. didn’t know that ppl actually are good and slick at that game. and I didn’t
know how many hotties there were in this school. =D.

 I met Jamie. u know, the
gal I know from msn, its really weird talking to her. she came back from New-Zealand
and before she came back, she was talking so high about how we hitch up and go
on a date and blah. but when it comes face to face, its really hard. I don’t know
why. but she’s hot. XD. urm. we just said like nice to meet you and all. it
really was unexpected.

 
and after all those excitement, I went to science lab and helped
out wei quan to do those preparation for the carnival on Saturday. it was fun u
know. I like doing stuffs for school. unlike those people, just laze around and
hang out. ohya. hated the gang in my class. didn’t know who they were
and they were taking the rubbish bin lid and throwing it like it was Frisbee.
eesh. pathetic losers weiiii.

I don’t know whether chiahchyi reads this, but I think NOT and I
hope NOT since I don’t want HIM to know that I like his BEST FRIEND .
mmmph ! I was just walking with sarah after school, then chiah chyi just tapped
on my bag and said ‘ hao wei call you’ and I went like, . . . I didn’t even
dare to look at them. the bunch of people. stupiddd ! geram-ing u know. then
hao wei went laughing his head off. damn. so freakin embarrassed u know. I didn’t
see him the whole day, except in the morning, and when I actually see him (
well, I didn’t , its just that someone tapped my bag, THEN I know that he is
there, or else, nope. ) I get embarrassed. that’s how things work
out. lol. so, I guess its time to leave.

whee ! I’m in a super duper happy mood.
why? read below lahhx.

today, woke up LATE again, at 6.40. don’t know why mom was in a
bad mood and ordered me around like usual. but she wasn’t like that ini the
past. don’t know what happened to her . moody lah. had a silent fight with her.
walah.

saw sook kwan when I reached school. then met tien yi, the gal, u
know, the a4 , the super-duper perasan kiddo. *weks*. had to eat my breakfast,
bread, in 5 minutes. but today was in 2 minutes. deng. stupid school bell. when
was walking down the tapak, saw him. whee. he was taking his sport bag, but his
pjk is on Monday. so wondered for a while. and it ended up walah ! continue
reading if you want to find so…

art period was hell boring. didn’t know why I was there . wanted
to ponteng so ajak-ed pui yee to ponteng. and guess what? guess who I saw
playing futsal? him. whee! it was his class versus sf. I think its Thompson’s
class if not mistaken. and they won ~ whee! T_T” . I mean, he was pushed once and
fell to the floor, and my heart went like, whomp ! sakit wei! then
he scored one goal, which was like such an emotional match since everyone was
like whooping and stuffs. and he went like, yay. ahha. I’m being really
pathetic wei ! cant take my eyes off him. hope no one reads this, or else I’ll
be like dead meat. the timing was really
chun . I just went down there and they just started playing. Nicholas yap was
the goalie for them. weks. he’s kinda short. but he saves goals. which is a
good thing…

the morning session 3 on 3 is nicer and BETTER than those
pathetic afternoon session people. don’t know why, don’t have a good impression
on them, maybe its coz like there aren’t any cute hunks there .
weeeek. and the way they play is slow and not really eye-catching.

squash was cool. bought the prince shoe’s . 150 bucks. not
really that expensive lah. it’s the one ding chao has, the yellow and black
shoe. which looks like a bee. wehh. don’t know wheter mom will subsidies some
since I’m already broke. blahhh !

by the way, it’s a weird thing. you see those guys playing
fusbal, then their girlfriends are like cheering all the way. lol. its like, so
cute ! the gals cheering all the way.=0 .oh, about me being happy? it was just
something to catch your eye with. nolah. JOKIN. I’m happy coz he scored and he’s
happy. =D

u know what, there’s this really irritating thing about
miscalls. I received one from yew tyan at u know what time?

6 am

in the morning. and I was so freakin
frustrated because I hadn’t had a good night sleep u know. T_T”. and when I went
to school. man, he got a good scolding from me. weks !

 there’s this thing about school. today was so BORING! there were
no teachers in classes coz they were all busy preparing for the golden jubilee
and I had to like, lepak the whole school. at first it was by myself, then met
sarah and ann chee. then we lepak-ed then when they had the sense to return
back to calss, I found sook yee and siew sin, so lepaked with them LAH. andi
had to say, chs is really a big school. it took me such a long time to actually
walk every part of it. hehe. I saw him XD .. he was standing out in the
corridor . with the whole p class gang. yengnezz ! well. honestly lah. this
comes straight from the heart. I think he is super cute! whhheeeee. not to say I’m
flicker minded or anything. met him in dominoe’s and asked him to help me buy a
class photo. thank god he said he’ll try. wink. hope no one reads this. hem hem…

 today was mainly about the futsal.. u know, street soccer, the
afternoon session were owhkay, preferred the morning session, where handsome
people were always there to be seen. honest ! eveil grins ! the treasure hunt
looks fun u know, saw daryl and soon heng and shafiq dancing. well. they were
sorta clubbing actually, to get the clue for d treasure hunt. wonder who won today.
 

 that’s true, I’m stuck on u ! that’s true, you are one that I want
and the one that I’ll be waiting for.you are the one that i want and i’ll get it.

whee !
today, went to school as usual, met sook kwan by the bridge. she said that
Felicia could take part in the treasure hunt, so I wasn’t needed lah. ahah.
kinda disappointing though. thought that I could have the license to skip
classes but its all over. its not like the teachers are in class heniwayz.

 I don’t know
whats up with the people today. the assembly was so freakin long. 2 periods !
and the sun was already up and I had to like. cover my face, so it wont get
sun-burned. today’s assembly was all mainly about the jubilee celebration about
where we sit and stuffs. didn’t know that the afternoon session students are
going to go to the hall and have this sorta thingy for Catholics . and we, the
higher grade’s aren’t required to be there. wakaka. evil grins ! and this Friday,
afternoon sessions are REQUIRED to come early. buaha. another in for us. nyaha
!

 and there
was this whole stretch of prizes to be given away. which was so-totally BORING
and we had NOTHING to do. when we try to open our mouths to just whisper, the
prefects go like.. SHHHHHHHH . and we will be like so humiliated +D.

 
then
there was 2 periods of science, which ms poon just dragged it. I think she doesn’t
even know how to speak Chinese. on account of how bad her pronunciation is and she
barely speaks Chinese. but cant blame here, there are tones of ppl hu sucks at Chinese
and I am well, one of them. so happened to XD

recess
was kinda ok. met up with suqin ! and hwee yeen, they passed the lkt thingy, I failed.
that’s another thing I failed. man ! and urm, I really think the gal in the 17
cover, is violet from puay chai, asked friends and they said it came in a
shock. a 15-year-old gal on 17 cover. shockers ! ok. then after recess, there weren’t
any classes. everyone just crapped and buh-vlah ! sook kwan asked me to skip
class and walked all over, met Thompson if iw asnt mistaken. playing the maths
board game. am going to try it tomorrow, if I have the chance to !

overall,
today had been a fun and nice day. whee ! that’s the attitude gal. be cheerful.
don’t be negative ! that’s so not u !

P/S.

ENGLAND

won !! DAVID scored !! wheee !!~~!~

PP/S. KIMI
3^rd. wheeee~

u know,
out of many reason’s I’m being frustrated, wait. no. I’m trying to say that,
why leeaiyan is frustrated.

Firstly,
its really tough when your friend out shine’s you in a sport that you are
suppose to specialize in. its hard to accept that she’s getting more attention
then you and she’s beating you in matches. and its certainly hurting your
pride.Secondly, when you are in a performance, you don’t see your parents
around because they are terribly late and they blame the school for starting
early and not them being late.

next, you
just seem to have no time for anything. rushing here and there. hectic schedule
and when you have time out, there’s always something you’ve forgotten to do and
have to get up and get done with it. next, I keep on complaining . that’s
right. I complain a lot. maybe that’s the negative part of me or something. but
I cant seem to stop complaining. let me specify that there’s nothing wrong with
me. I’m perfectly normal thank you. I’, just like a typical type of teenager,
eager to try things which never experienced before.

ohgosh. I
crapped again. for the don’t-know-number-what time in my life, I hate life. I
cant think that. I told myself dearest blog, I cant be such a moaner . think
positive aint hard . ush ush ush.

I’m sick.
really sick.not as in sick sick. as in sick fever sick. maybe yichen passed it
on to me. damn it. meanwhile, since I have so many time to type, I’ll type
everything. I think I’m being an emo. yeah yeah. here we go again. this
immature talking bout herself, thinks she’s emo, think she’s having a miserable
life.. I know you are thinking about that. duh. since me, the person hu is
writing this is just so happening to think the same old thing. blah.

and
there’s this thing in school. why must students like, separate themselves and
classify themselves . for instance, the hottie group, the nerd’s, the jocks,
the rich babe’s and the normal ones. its just so not fair. just because some
people are rich, they have no right to discriminate other people. so what if I
don’t have a color hand phone? an ipod? a cool hairstyle and a hot body? it
doesn’t mean that I cant be your friend, survive in this school right? and just
because this certain someone is ms popular or mr.yeng guy, then those
oh-so-wannabe’s go and suck their asses? and the popular one’s are like going
gaga over those higher grade hotties , for ex in our school are like, urm, some
of my friends go high over kelton and Andrew for no specific reasons. and so what if I’m not the type of friend you
are looking for? it so doesn’t give u the right to backstab me and stuffs.
yeah. I think that some people are going over the line.

I JUST WANT TO KNOW ! AM I REALLY THAT BAD? FUCK IT/ I SO HATE LIFE. ITS SO MEANINGLESS. THERE’S ONLY ONE WAY TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS AND I’M WRITING IT HERE. AND IF YOU ARE SO CALLED HAPPENENIG TO READ THIS, I DONT CARE ANY MORE. I DONT WANT TO CARE ABOUT YOU OR YOUR PROBLEMS, FROM NOW ON, I’LL BE AN MEAN AND SELFISH. ONLY I WILL KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME AND I WONT GIVE A FUCK TO CHANGE THAT. I HATE EVERYONE. BEING EMO, YEAH. BUT SO WHAT? ITS MY LIFE AND U DONT HAVE TO CARE ABOUT IT. I DONT EVEN WANT YOUR OPINION. I’M SO-CALLED FRIENDLESS RIGHT NOW. I WORK ALONE. I WALK ALONE.

blah blee
blum. today was the annual gotong-royong thing. well. unlike the past few
years, just sitting down and watch people get the job done, I actually did some
things u know. I helped by wiping the windows, tables and actually brushed the
floor. I don’t know why some of my class mates are like having the
I’m-not-bothered attitude. but its none of my business. whep. me and the whole
gang of dudes had a late recess and went back to class real late. I honestly
think that guys are better friends than gals, they don’t care how they look or
gap-zhai, well, they gap-gal’s lah. LOL. me and the dude’s really talk about
anything. from jokes to normal life stuffs .

<ate
lunch with sheng zu at the mamak stall there , with tt lahhx. wait. before
that, I went to the squash court and saw like so freakin many people there. all
afternoon sessions. man. since when did squash become such a popular sport?
eesh. being perasanted again. was surprised meeting nenlin and Amanda there.
played some games lah. dhen stupid micheal came and said that school uniform’s
not allowed. aihh. changed and went out with sheng zu. when I came back, there
were less people and I played squash ( like DUH , if not what? ping pong ?) at
first it was just me and choon lim, then came jowynia and her sister. I dnt
know why,. her attitude really sucks ! and she acts like a know-it-all and
blah. borrowed micheal’s racquet. damn light and nice ^^”> I want to get
those prince shoes like edc has, its so nice. there’s this blue and this green
and red and one is the yellow and black, which dc has. its really chun u know .
weks.

there was
this thing. that happened. and I’m really happy about it. cheers.

from now
onwards, no more spamming testy’s. just normal one’s . yannx.

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I
seriously don’t know why. I think I’m becoming an emotional person. I’m being
so down and sad and I seldom smile nowadays. fuck. I’m really being ironic. I
don’t know lah. thing’s always happen and I’m not like the aiyan that I used to
be anymore. nothing really makes me smile. I fake my smile and laughs everyday
of my life. I don’t know what’s up with me. really messed up. tomorrow’s
Friday. and it’s the day of doomness. for the lkt thing? I think I’ll fail u
know. on account of not doing anyting except some teeny wheeny thingy.

I
classify my friend as three types. one is those hi-bye friends, whom I never
really talk to, except those hi and bye’s . and secondly, there are the online
buddies, whom I speak to them everyday and stuffs but in school we don’t know
each other, that’s what I think. some examples are like jyh ling, Thompson k. ,
hao wei, derrick, wei nian and blah. and lastly are the true friends. like
yichen, rouying,Jolene,yuevern , kenn ,Amanda and whole lots. those are the
people whom I can trust and when I’m down, I can just go to them and tell them
everything. provided if they listen that is,

this
blog entry is crap. but I don’t have the mood to write those exciting things
today. and .. there’s nothing exciting. its one of those boring days again.
come on aiyan ! u can do it. cheer cheer cheer! just throw all those sad things
and look at the bright side. come on !

I’m
so tired and so freakin moody today, I don’t know. maybe yichen didn’t come and
I had to sit with Jolene, which isint really a bad thing. wonder whats up with
her. ditching me like this. LOL. well. today had been quite a fun day. the
stupid mr. ho didn’t come so didn’t get to audition for the JUBLI EMAS sekolah
thingy. I’m singing breakaway. its such a nice song and the lyrics are so freakin meaningful. wei wei said that
if u want to put in some action in that song, its so freaking easy, spread your
wings and learn how to fly and touch d sky =]

we
decorated this box with wrapping papers and lace’s for the jubli emas thing. it
ended up quite well unexpectedly. we expected to be the last few ones lazing
around. but we were the first to hand it in. I can sense that pn.dayang was
kinda please with our thang. but puh-leaze. she’z please with apparently everything.
she’s such a good kind soul. what a moral teacher =].

I
skipped maths and English. thank god I skipped English. yichen took my literature
so I didn’t have any book. speaking of English, teacher STILL HASN’T give us
back our BI2 paper. she needs a month to mark them. oh dear god.

there
are times, when some things are going just the right way, and

ur

smiling at it,
then bam, it could just go all around. its so true. in the morning I was so
freakin happy and in the afternoon my mood so totally changed. sigh. joel,
congrats yeah. for d chs idol thing. u rock !

amanda. u know ur my world.. .and yeah ian, ms sherry is my english teacher. what did i get to deserve her. aiiih

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