yay.. tomorow got lkt camp. done lyk 70 % of d packing and i’m still working on it. gona b so excited =]/ well.. today went oklah. bumped into him during recess..but i think he didnt c me on account that he is so freakin tall and i’m just a shortie. ohwel.
so freakin tired. after 4 days of torture, i finally got a BRONZE medal. but well. its worth it =]/ today was super duper wheellyuper fun ! everyone had a great time. chs team under 18 boyz team a got 3rdplacing. kinda disappointed . but d jared guy whacked ding chao 9-0,9-0 deng.,but we managed to win coz shanlee and hao wei won d previous matches. so. haha. kinda nice. d feeling of victory andi gained a LOT of friends. now i really know hu wuz there for me ^^"
so freakin happy. well. ahha. remember d kinda-yeng-and-build-up guy? i gotaa chance to well. ahah
i’m beat. found a new crush, not actually a crush, just admire him in some ways, hiz name is. why should i tell u? hmph =]. d way he play iz so freakin yeng. and hiz so macho and hiz hiz hiz. perfect. but hiz kinda blur. but sometimes damn alert. duno wut to say d lah. hiz just lyk. . ahhh
today was good,i really really love marking ryt now. its not that hard oafter all. d most cahllegnin was d one where ding chao aka chs team a verusus d some school. damn hard to score. and i messed up and dc was lyk.. ahem. aiyan-pls-get-d-marks-ryt look. haha. damn cool lah today. just wish everyday was just lyk daht, all troubles will be gone. e v e n t u a l l y.
oh my god. i really cant believe myself. why when other ppl comes askin me for probs, i have lyk tonnes of brilliatn ideas which always works out and dont know lyk how many couples just got bak toghetr juz coz of me. not beign perasan. pinky swear. but its lyk when its my turn, when i try to tell them mah probz. no one was there for me. really. NO ONE> except nen lin, which gave some teeny wheeny suggestions. either then that. nada. nil,. NONE.
i cant live this life anymore. day by day i’m just gettin more and more negative. i used to think on d bright side and always have a cheer for ppl.now? its so totally diffrent. i think all of this is going wrong. fuck.
newayz. today. squash ocmpertition. i just cant believe how many leng zhai;s are there in the whole of selangor. in d court, there were so many hotties. and one of them actually cought my eye for a sec. but. ahh. i hate biegn a marker. there was once where i sort of swiched places with shanlee coz i didnt want to b d marker. i’m so scared of shoutin d wrong things. i’m not pro lyk ding chao or hao wei , i jsut lyk.. mix up things for a while. aih. someone would u just please help me? i’m dying ryt here and no one’;s giving a damn about it.
i’m so beat. i’m goin shoppin in one utama later. gona shop till i really drop. gota buy nicholas’s birthday pressie.duno wut to buy, really running out of ideas. but its not my responsible to buy him ryt. so . aihhhhhhhh..
all i can do is
prevent meeting him in school. i cant meet him also wad. for 1 week. squash.
urm. try not to look at him. all i can c in his eyes are lies.
and i dont wana tok bout him anymore for one week,
make this a anti joel week. ok.
i am so f uckin sad and well. disappointed. i hate him. so what if i really really love him? its really all over. i just fee lyk dying and well. disapperaing. i cant face him in school ( but i;m not gona b in school next week ) and i dont wana look at him.
so so depressed. y must all this come in one? is age really a factor? is age a big thing? i only know that i really really do love him <3
dum da dum. today was just so haha. well. I think I saw derrick hoe. its lyk.. so weird. . really. then after that I saw daryl and I said hi.. wel. I didn’t really say hi. I saw him and he saw me and he walked away and he turned and say hi. overall. a very weird day to begin with. aha. dhen I went around school lookin forn yichen. about d pair oral presentation. it was totally last minute I tell u. English period was first period and we were d first pair. pure dumb luck. but we managed though. haha. teacher wasn’t that pleased. but heck. malay period was really boring. d stupid treasurer asked us to pay 11 bucks. that’s lyk a whole lot of money. I can go and c a movie u know. ahah. then all 4 of us, yichen, rouying and Jolene went lyk. changing lyrics of d song. its really really funny =] but too bad I don’t have Chinese star, or else I’ll type it out. from micheal to jay to Wilber. HAHAHA.
saw him during recess, he didn’t even looked at me. I mean. its not lyk I’m that short ryt? tap on hiz shoulder only noticed. and he was dead surprise. urm, that’s so weird. he cant b stil sleepy ryt? he sleeps during and after classes. LOL =] I was really having a very sweet dream yesterday nite, then aaron called and told me stuffs and well. one whole hour gone. and as a result, I have these eye rings ryt now. its not that I dun wana help, just call earlier lah XD . squash was nice. I’m gona have msss next week. Tuesday wed and thurs, then on Friday its free, but lkt meeting. then on Saturday Sunday and d following Monday, I have this camp to go. wat a way to end april…
to Amanda. I know u read this. remember d thing I told u bout privacy? ahem. but nvm. I read urs too =]
its
just really unbelievable. Its not lyk hiz a really good guy, hiz not lyk hiz so
compassionate, but he got voted as a good Samaritan. LOL ! ohwel. lala~ today
was ohkay. kh was really really boring. d teacher doesn’t know how to teach.
shez juz reading from d text. blah blah blah. its really a day to rejoice. I found out things that I didn’t
know before and its kinda nice knowin it =]. teacher asked me to write an
article for d sch mag. still thinking about wut to write. its not lyk I have d
talent to even write. I hope aaron and kexin are alright. sighnez. I was half
way through a VERY NICE DREAM when aaron called. then we chat for lyk.. 30 min?
then I went bak to sleep. and after that I had a nightmare. d dream was lyk. me
and him were walkin and suddenly jess came and walked with him. we went up to
his class. and then we were sitting ryt at d bak. jess and I had our bags
hugged coz form 6’s are wearin just a blouse and no pinafore. then pn lim yoke
keng was apparently teachin biology which I don’t know. then they started to
dissect d rat. y must he tell me that
they dissected smthn. eew. its so yucky. rat sushi . . .
p/s didn’t
get to update this for d past few days cz d line was really slow. It took me 10
mins to load a page and I apparently gave up. wink.
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