aiyan downright.

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aihhh. why must life just b so frustratin and sad. everything’s just not going ryt. everythings goin d wron way. sighnez. gosh.

if is a very big word

if is just somethin unreleastic and always remain a dream

X_x aiyan x_X

i dont know why
i so freakin hate that gal. she didnt lyk. did anythin. but her attitude and wel. things she does irritates me and gets on my nerves. oh . blah.

eesh. i cant wait for my english teacher to give us bak our paper. other clases lyk. have they’re kedudukan and we’re stilll stuck without a full average. sigh. i wana get d highest. but yet its just a dream.

ungu so totaly rock. u could c d team spirit, u could c d envy of other houses. u could feel the heat going on. u could juz touch ur heart and say. ungu rocks !!! foreva ungu-ian. lol !

i love him. one.two.three.wakakakakak!

i dont really wana giv a damn bout school. there’s lyk.nthn to look forward to in d mornin. everyday juz wondering and finding ppl to teman and stuffs. its really getting very frustrating. why cant i have best friends lyk every one else? sogh. so fucked up. i dont care bout my reputation or ‘gals=cant-use-bad-words-’ thingy anymore. its just another word. as if i give a damn. try me.

i can ryt anythin iwant here coz well. its lyk my personal space. a place where i can lyk. espress my feelings bout everyone and everything that’s happening to me ryt now. i noe that ppl wont come and read this blog. its juz a useless thing to them. but not to me.

why must i always think negative. that’s d ques i’ve always been asking myself. why not b a happy-go-lucky gal juz lyk everyone else? dun worry bout anythin and juz smile all day and play all day. no worries and stuffs. i tried. andsomehow. it didnt work =[

everyone keeps lookin down on me and think that i cant do this, i dont have d ability to do stuffs. i dont reach they’re standard. but hey. why care bout them? i live my life to myself and to no one . why must i care to some prosacinator who doesnt even know whats goin on with her own life. if she cant handle her own life. dont come around messing with mine. doesnt she know that ruining other ppl’s life is so not cool.

well. i gues i beta stop. my time’s over. mwuahx

hearts.

swell. today wuz owhkay i guess. still trying my best to lyk. forget bout those stuff and get on with my life. lala ! i hate our kh teacher for bieng so fussy. i hate my chinese teacher coz she gave me such low marks and i hate my seni teacher gor giving me so freakin low marks. wut to do. tak ada jodoh. XD

i keep wondering to myself.

why must ppl care bout popularity?

why must ppl lyk.. polish your shoes?

why ppl act that they’re cool but they arent

why cant they admit to themselves that they arent preety?

gosh.

sigh. today today today. woke up as normal. wanted to lyk..look forward to school and stuffs. BUT all i got was disappointment. i tot ppl would lyk forget about it EVENTUALLY but it didnt. after going through a super-duper borin assembly i’m lyk. sleepin all d way coz there’s nthn but borednes. even tan lin didnt come. she also didnt want to suffer borednes. that’s really great of her. bwah ! didnt do anything in clas. stupid bitches sat on mah place so i sat with zhi choong. which is not a bad thing. talked about his breakup with rouying and wel. i think its a pity lah. sighnes.i didnt even want to sit with them in d science lab. F*** THEM !. eew. i dun wana f^ck them. take it bak *zip* . recces was nice. met up with him and discussed our life. apparently he wasnt mad at me after all =] /.after recess was borednez again. i hate pn tan keat sim. shez such a total biatch. y cant she just lyk. care bout some other MAJOR things then MINOR things. does she even know how to teach? eesh. i hate bieng in my claz. i hate beng ditched. i hate everythin. well. not everythin =]/ flicker minded me..>.~. joel’z group is already lyk. practisin singin d. i’m lyk..still wonderin around. hope hiz sore throat will cure.

hearts..

yan.

juz wat i needed. thakn u god for thrashin me all this problems now. i so need it.

yay. i passed d first round audition for chs idol. first i would wana thanks my dad and mom for motivatin me and havin trust on me and BLAH ! ohgosh. arrived school so freakin early. lucky me there were ppl there. or else i would b so scared. i wuz # 60/ long way to go , so decieded to eat mah bf with shirley and then only i realised befor singin kenot eat. ><" tried to warm bak up mah voice but couldnt work. joel asked me to sing but no sound came out. called hooi yee to help me , still no sound. then after an hour or so , hwee yen helped me,. well, it sorta helped a LITTLE> then joel came around and said. are we in a temple. i wuz lyk.. eesh ! ppl warmin up wad. but i’[m not as bad as him. he haz a sore throat and well. tried all ways still no cure. BUT IT WASNT FAIR COZ HE PASSED WITH A SORE THROAT !> ohwel. i passed too. wakakak~went to amcorp with ke xin. were so retarded. i’m lyk. so freakin high with ke xin. sighnez. bought him a choclate and it melt on d way bak. now u know how hot we live in. eesh

sigh. i hate school. i hate seein my clazmates. everyone’s lyk. actin so wierd to me , not talkin and stuffs. why must i undergo this type of stress? at least i know htat there are a group of friends i could alwayz trust. wakkakaka. luv them. urm. bout today. didnt have any concentration in d claz. juz wrote a lot of stupid stuffs.

after school wuz owkay. joel passed d chs audition thingy. well. lots of form 6 passed. thats unfair. wakaka~ i’m on tomorow. and i’m dead nervous. amanda’s group passed. ahha. ohya. i didnt know IAN BEH read my blog. ahha. now u c ur name ian. happy? XD

i really lost it. big.time

. sigh.. i so have probs of wakin up. didnt wanted to go tapak coz everythin on me wuz disobeyin d school rulez. but i got lucky. didnt get caught. ate mah breakfast in calz. me brian and xiau yen got d higest for bm2. all fair. wakakaka~ my purata iz ok. can get better lahz. hated chinese. i so dunw ana take chinese. y wuz i borned chinese. sigh !!!wel. had no luck in recess. but at lunch i met him. oh. d highlithgt of d day. today steph brought her phone and zhi choong wuz browsin through d videos and suddenly he saw a porn thingy. even steph herself dun no it. it wuz recorded in uitm. stupid zhi choong showed me and i went addicted. ahha. sex. haha. ku ji hao wuz so freakin high. ahhaha