Its been just too long! I didn’t really have the time to blog or do stuffs in friendster like update anything, reasons are, that I was just too busy with the exams and I have a new blog! www.itsallaboutonegirl.blogspot.com. I thought that that blog was much nicer, since it can change skins and stuffs, but I don’t want to lose touch with those people in friendster! So here I am, at my bedroom with a very comfortable laptop, typing this thing!
Well, lots happened at the past half-a-year, where should I start? I got into a class, 4S3, which is nice now, wasn’t that nice at first, because I didn’t know too many people there and they were all so called nerds, that study 24 hours a day, that was all on first impression basis, now we’re all fine together, laughing with jokes, and we know that who’s good and who’s bad in class.
Well, as for my social life, it’s going down the drain, I don’t know! Nowadays I just mix with people around me, like Helena, suchen, Winnie, Syl, Careen and Chooi Yin, I think that they trust me and vice versa so we just hang together, other than that, I don’t think my life’s so great like the pass year. I personally wonder what the hell did I do to deserve those attention last year, but now, all I’m left is with an empty nutshell, I used to mix with those of the lower forms, but because of the whole recess thing, and PMR so we don’t really get to hang out. And as for those of higher forms, I don’t mix with them, I don’t know why, maybe it’s because that they hate me. Or not. That I don’t know.
But, some people whom I know, just don’t seem to know me anymore. Everytime when we walk next to each other, we ignore each other totally, that totally sucks you know. I mean, I’m not desperate to have friends, but then, on the other hand, you KNOW that person and she knows you, but then, ignoring totally. That doesn’t seem to fit.
And as for studies, don’t need to say, I so suck at it, I don’t cope with them and I just don’t have the time to study. Well, not really. It’s just that I DON’T want to, that’s all. And near exams, I’ll rush like shit and I don’t know why, I just seem to fail everything, maybe it wasn’t such a good option going into science stream . After all, my ambition aint those doctors or whatsoever.
Talking about ambition, I want to be a performer, singer or pianist, any one, I wanted people to know, that I can sing, but then my family keeps on pestering me to take up Law, Medicine or whatever shit there is to make money. I want to do something I want, I want to sing in front of a stage where people shouts my name, is that so hard to realize? I want to make loads of money, and I want people to remember me when I’m dead.
Well, this past year, I did a lot of club activities, as usual the Squash MSSS, I got third this year, same as the last, I hope next year I can score a better one, when I’m leading. I need to prove to people that I’m a person who have something inside and not anything. And I’m a newbie to Lembaga Maintenance, LM for short, I love that club a lot, I want to do stuffs for them, but everytime there’s an opportunity, I seem to not grasp it, I tend to slack and not do anything. There are so many capable people in there, so they don’t really need me, all I have to do is to present myself in every meeting to get marks. That’s fair enough.
My Love Life.
Ok that was a weird phrase to start with, but then, this whole year, or make it half, was just about one guy, one guy whom brought me to try things which I never tried before nor dared to try, one guy whom I broke his heart terribly, from what I heard today. One guy, I loved so much just like my passion towards music. It’s so funny how one relationship which lasted for 8 months just ended up like that, just yesterday. I’m still grieving on it, but I didn’t cry a
LOT
. It was just the stupid song from Elliot Yamin, I’ll Wait For You and Avril’s When You’re Gone made me tear, just a little bit, I think maybe 2 pieces of tissue. Hardly used. That’s all. I hope that we could still be friends, but then, hopes of seeing him ever again is like, none.
Well I’m sorry for the long post, but once you type, you just cant get your hands off the keyboard. And it’s the perfect thing to do to waste time!
I had not many ups and downs this year, make that half a year. I have a very boring routine to follow every week, it’s getting really boring and I’m desperate to leave it, the sooner the better. But I know that when it’s time for me to graduate, I will regret what I just stated. \
i think that now, all I have to look forward to school is that, the mood and atmosphere. I like sitting alone in a corner and think about life, I prefer doing that than chit chatting all day long like what I do right now. And finally, one last word, I miss my past life.
